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Comment on Final Chapter by Kathy Block

Kathy Block — Sun, 23 May 2010 05:40:53 +0000

Ben
You are a champ and don’t ever forget that! Sending hugs and I agree
fuck cancer or better said by you:) cuck fancer!
Hugs
Kathy (one of Bonnie and Ashley’s Friends)

Comment on Final Chapter by Joe Goedereis

Joe Goedereis — Sun, 02 May 2010 05:02:28 +0000

Ben,

I know EXACTLY what you are going through. Although I haven’t had the stem cell transplant, when I was first diagnosed and had my first chemotherapy treatment (MACOP-B) my white counts went so low they had a hard time finding anything to count and I required several transfusions to build my platelet counts up to prevent massive internal and external bleeding. I was in reverse isolation for nearly 34 days in the hospital and did some of the same things you just described above (including yell and curse the toilet, along with praying from the bathtub). After 8 rounds of chemotherapy and now being declared in remission from Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, I am still going through the same bullshit you described – the weakness, the melancholy moods, and in my case the utter physical destruction my body has undergone that prevents me from recovering as fast as I’d like. I want to get in a gym so bad but my legs have not fully recovered and basically flip me the bird every day. I know you must probably feel like asking yourself “when the hell is this crap going to end?”, but trust me, it will get better. I know, because I thought the same thing, and I still have those thoughts to this day, but little by little, you will get your strength back and the depression will lift.

I can see you’re already slowing up to enjoy the good things in life, the simple things like fresh air and blue skies. Don’t ever lose sight of that because those are the things that will get you through each day and lift your spirits in the future.

I can’t tell you how much it meant to me when I read your hand written note on the back of the envelope that you shipped my “Cuck Fancer” bracelets in. I showed it to everyone in the office at work. I now have 10 co-workers who wear a LiveStrong bracelet and a Cuck Fancer bracelet right next to it every day with me in solidarity in our fight against cancer. Every one of us has been touched by cancer, and I think of you every day when I look down at my green bracelet. I’m 36 and I too also want to raise millions of dollars for cancer research one day. Give me a ring sometime when you’re back on your feet and feeling better and we’ll do it together.

Fellow Survivor,

Joe Goedereis

Comment on Final Chapter by Hannah Neumaier

Hannah Neumaier — Sun, 25 Apr 2010 16:36:10 +0000

Hey there,
First of all: That’s it! You’re finally done and hopefully also forever.
Second, I was with you in my thoughts the whole time and you did so great it is unbelievable! You can be so proud of yourself and you will never forget this experience. I also think that being unmotivated is totally okay for now, but stay positive about this because no matter what else you will have to endure in your life, from now one you will always know that nothing can bring you down, because you did this and nothing could ever be as though so, you can do anything!
We all believe in you,
With real admiration and a lot of respect,
I hope you get better, I know you will,
Hannah

Comment on Final Chapter by Jacinta

Jacinta — Fri, 23 Apr 2010 04:53:07 +0000

Hi Ben,
Shit, that’s heavy! My sis has just relapsed only 4 weeks out of ABVD treatment – it stinks! I guess she’s facing a SCT and it sounds like hell. I hope it’s all good from here on in and you experience a long and healthy life. No-one should have go to through this stuff, it’s just not fair.
Take care of you,
Jacinta

Comment on War Zone by Hannah Neumaier

Hannah Neumaier — Sun, 11 Apr 2010 07:36:02 +0000

Hey Ben,
I also don’t know you but I’ve been reading your blog since it was mentioned on the SU2C Website. My two grandfathers died from cancer when I was little so I didn’t experience it. But my dad is a researcher (who also worked in City of Hope for two years) and I’ve been in contact with cancer and it’s treatments from a young age.
This summer I’ll fly over from Germany, where I live and shadow the researchers in CoH, so that’s a great opportunity. But what I wanted to say was that some days ago my aunt got diagnosed with breast cancer. We don’t know how bad it is yet but I can finally really understand what your family must be going trough and they have my greatest respect.
You, Ben, created an amazing blog with such positive energy that it makes me happy to read about what a fighter you’ve been. Cuck Fancer! I know that you can.
By the way, I’m only 16 years old and I had a group created for you and SU2C in a very large german network that’s called schülervz.net. We have 47 members and I bet they’re all reading your blog.
So please know that your story has spread over to even Germany and that you are in our thoughts.
With the best wishes,
Hannah

Comment on War Zone by Jamie

Jamie — Sun, 11 Apr 2010 07:22:40 +0000

Hi Ben

I came across your website while trying to look up info about my transplant Im due to have in a few weeks. I’m 23 and from England, and I totally empathise with your situation, and can say with complete honesty that I do know largely how you feel. I was diagnosed nov 2009 with acute lymphoblastic leukaemia. After months of chemo I’m now weeks away from a stemcell transplant, probably sharing the same concerns and fears that you have.

I like your war analogy, and have uses it to explain this to my family (I’m a bioscience student and so unfortunately understand what’s going on all too well). I also will have a war going on, except my body will be taken hostage as collateral because I’m having a donor’s stemcells and they are going to attack my body a little bit.

I just wanted to let you know I wish you the best of luck – hope it went/is going well.

All the best

Jamie

Comment on War Zone by Michelle McKenzie

Michelle McKenzie — Mon, 05 Apr 2010 22:48:00 +0000

Ben,
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You are in our heart, thoughts, and prayers. You are an inspiration to all of us Ben.
All of our love,
Mrs. McKenzie and your friends at Hale Middle School~

Comment on War Zone by Kerri S

Kerri S — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 19:37:22 +0000

Ben, I just saw your blog through a link on our lymphoma forum – just wanted to say GOOD LUCK man, you can do this! You’re attitude is amazing. I’ll say a prayer that you get outta there in record time. Until then…chin up! Fists out! Fight like hell.

From one lymphoma survivor to another – CUCK FANCER!!!!!!!!

Kerri S from ATL, GA

Comment on War Zone by donella meade

donella meade — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 22:25:11 +0000

ben, keep your chin up. every yucky day is one closer to this nitemare being over! you can beat this! all our love and prayers for the next 25 days…….x x

Comment on War Zone by Ginny Weisman

Ginny Weisman — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 18:55:33 +0000

Hi Ben,
I’m CJ’s grandma. As you know, I had a stem cell transplant at City of Hope 3 1/2 years ago. No two experiences are alike. I totally understand your concerns (fears, worries). I have to say I especially understood your comment about the Hickman Catheter and my happiest day was when they took it out. It was, as you said, a daily reminder of your cancer and it wouldn’t let you forget for a minute what was going on. BUT, you WILL get through this and little by little you will get back everything you have temporarily lost. I was in COH 19 days. When I came home Pam and Linda each spent one night with me and then I said I was okay to go it alone, except for food runs. Within a few weeks I was driving to the grocery store for myself and it’s been uphill ever since. You will have what I best describe as really YUKKY! days after they give you your stem cells but they work really hard to ward off all of the medical problems they have told you about. I suggest that, you need your own tooth brush, not the foam thing they give you. Have several extra pairs of jamies. Ask constantly for ice. You need to drink alot of water and it’s better cold. Eat your sorbet first when it’s served at dinner ’cause it’s already half melted. Your appetite will be really off because your taste buds are totally shot but they will moniter what you don’t eat and give you intravenous feedings if necessary. They moniter your weight like crazy. Try and sleep as much as you can. I couldn’t wait until 9:00 when I got my sleeping pill. I used earplugs too. Leave your door open. Walk as much as you can and when you can’t do it anyway. You’re going to be fine. Oh, no pain……just really YUKKY! Hard to talk for any length of time so sometimes I asked a caller to tell me what’s going on in their life cause I just didn’t have the strength to talk. I’m praying for you everyday. And did I mention I’m in remission 3 1/2 years now and off all drugs for my Multiple Myeloma. God Bless You and your family.
Ginny